So it's really true!

Yes, it's official. I am so pregnant, lol. Had my first appt with the dr's office today. I had to have my first appt with a midwife. I asked her if she was running away screaming yet? She kind of laughed. Went over my history. 1st baby 36 weeks, severe pe. 2nd baby - 35 weeks 5 days, severe pih. The nurse asked me how many tests I had taken. Ummm about 20. She laughed. She said she always ask how many tests. They gave me some magazines that had cool pics of babies at each stage. Nausea started this morning. Not too bad yet. PLEASE GOD DON'T LET IT BE AS BAD AS IT WAS WITH S. IT WAS AWFUL. I officially got put into the high risk pool. I asked when I would be seeing the peri and she said between 14 -16 weeks. So I will start seeing her much earlier than the 26 weeks that I did with S. I can stay on Ziac for now. I am to start baby aspirin. ICK. Take vitamins and folic acid. She ran a pih panel along with an OB panel. I had the best lab tech. I didn't even feel the pin prick. She was so good. I asked her what her schedule was and she actually told me. So I told her be seeing you next month! The only bummer was that the midwife asked me if this was my last. Two, what was I doing permanently?? Ok, let's get past healthy baby and mom first. I know it is my reality. It just bums me out the same. I explained I would be having a hysterectomy. That Dr H and Dr E had suggested it. That Dr H had actually said it wasn't a question that my uterus needs to come out. The question was whether I get to keep my ovaries. She ok'd the steroid shot for my knee. However, she will be discussing with Dr. E tomorrow. Take and monitor my bp once a day, but don't go crazy with it. BP was high for me at 124/88. However, not too terrible and hopefully this time I will get the 2nd trimester dip. I also got the standard answers to common questions, when to call, blah blah blah. So my next appt is 1/18. I get to have the full exam. ICK ICK ICK. They cancelled my annual exam appt on Feb 15th because that will be taken care of on the 18th. So I am off to the races. Things are ok at this point. My first appt with S and K my bp was already high like 150-160/100-105 without meds. So I will take the 124/88. Oh and I also did a urine dip/culture. BLAHHHHHH. All in all a pretty good start.

spotting, ugh

Well I was 5 weeks yesterday and my first appt is next Wednesday. Last night I started having some really light pink spotting. It could be normal or a sign of bad things to come. I think it is normal for now. I did way way too much yesterday. We held a GI party. You know, when everyone in the house pitches together to clean. I cleaned the whole upstairs. DH worked on the downstairs. He will finish the downstairs tomorrow after he takes S to daycare. A 2 year old makes it really hard to clean if you kwim.

Last night I noticed really light pink spotting. It could be implantation bleeding, me overdoing it, a lot of things. So I have been taking it really easy today and have had my feet up all day. It hasn't gotten any worse.

We are getting ready for Christmas. The girls are so excited, especially S. She is totally into the Santa thing this year. As far as telling everyone, we are thinking around Feb around Valentines day. I'll be 12 weeks Valentine week. Friends will be thrilled. Inlaws will not be. Oh well, their loss. Dh and I are actually dreading telling the inlaws. I mean, who wants to hear something that you consider wonderful and a miracle and have someone rain on your parade. I don't think we will get past hiding it past 12 weeks. I am already popping out some or maybe it's in my head. I did just win some maternity jeans and shorts off Ebay for $23. WHOO HOO. I found a bunch of stretchy knit pants. I have a lot of "big" shirts, lol. Anyway, I thought up a good response for the inlaws. Um the correct way to respond would be congratulations. However, since you seem to think that you have a right to inquire on this which you don't, the answer would be to not say anything if you can't say anything nice. We had to tell a little white lie because K is out of school this week. We don't want her to know yet. So we needed someone to watch her at that appt. So we told mil that I needed to see the endo specialist in Rochester. She knows I am not allowed to drive after those shots. So it was a good thing, ha ha ha ha.

The next step would be telling my boss. YIKES.

Update

Well I think I have taken about 20 tests and they are ALL positive. Still in shock that it worked the first time. Called the dr's office on Thursday and got a newbie at reception. She was reading off a little paper cause I requested an appt with my dr. She said oh it says according to the paper here that Dr. E doesn't see patients for first prenatals. GRRRR. You have to see the nurse practioner. She said let me get you set up with K. I said umm, no. I don't know her, can I see P.? She got off the phone for a few minutes, I presume to ask. She came back and said no problem. So I am set up for 12/26 at 2pm. I then asked will I get to see my dr after that? She said oh yeah, he just doesn't do first prenatals. Whatever. At least P knows me and knows I am high risk. She was there assisting the night I had S.

I saw the pcp today. I love her and the office. My girls love her too. S has a sinus infection and bronchitis. Wonderful. I have a sinus infection and pleursy. WHAT?? So then I told her whatever she prescribes has to be ok for pregnancy as I am 4 weeks pregnant. She said Congratulations, then she immediately asked me if I was getting a tubal after this one! I know she cares about my well being and that is why she asked. At least that is what I hope.

I told her I had been advised by both drs to dump the uterus after the baby is born. In fact, Dr H said it wasn't a question about the uterus going, but whether or not I get to keep my ovaries. OHHH, good. :< Hmmmm. She prescribed 875mg of amoxicillian 3 times a day. She wants to knock it out. She is hoping to prevent pnuemonia. Ugggh. I have the best luck don't I?

We are not planning on telling family and friends till 12 weeks at least. I have no idea how I will announce to the family. I think they will all be awful about it. I think the best response will be to take the higher road and state, the correct answer would be congratulations. Anything else said is none of your business and inappropriate. Keep it simple. Eventually they will come around, but they are not going to like this at all. However, they don't live our lives, pay our bills, and take care of our kiddos. So they don't get a voice in it. Funny how they think they get a say. My mil thinks this is ok. She doesn't say anything to sil and bil about their choices. So I need to get that changed.

I have a zillion questions for when I do finally get to see my dr.

Shhhhhh, I have a secret.....

Yes, that's right. I have a BIG secret. I took a pregnancy test today. It is only 11 dpo. I took the first one at 3 am when I had to get up to pee. It looked negative, so I put it on the counter and went back to bed. Then before I left work at 5am, I looked at the 3am test. There was a faint line. WHAT?? So, I took another one. It had a faint line within the allotted time. OMG, it worked on the first try. Who knew I was such a fertile myrtle. I really assumed that the endo had destroyed my ovaries and stuff because of the scarring that has been noted on the op reports. I came home from work. Took another test. A bit darker and definitely a line. Still faint, but you can clearly see the second line. OMG. I didn't freak out. I didn't get sick or upset. I was actually very happy and excited. Who knew the chances of it happening on the first try AGAIN.

I am going to call my dr's office tomorrow and schedule an appt. I'll have to do it on my way home from work. There are still some nurses that remember me from the last time he he. In fact, one of them told me I was crazy for ever considering this again.

I don't plan to tell anyone in real life till I am past 12 weeks. Told dh tonight and he was excited and estatic. I can't get him to keep his mouth shut. He wants to shout it from the rooftops!

Of course I have a ton of questions for my doc. I need to cancel with the endo specialist for the 28th. YEAHHHHHHHH!

And so the wait begins!

I am officially in the 2 week wait. OMG. I can't believe it. I really felt like I was going to be sick when I realized that now is the time. I used opks and got a positive and told my dh now is the time. He has mixed feelings. He doesn't want to see me get sick at all. I told him we can't live our life in fear of the unknown. All we can do is be vigilant, run the blood and urine tests, do the ultrasounds and make sure that I am watched like a hawk. My drs will do that for me. Hopefully we will know if we were successful between th 13th and 15th. Keep your fingers crossed.

Oh and pray that we get through the Hannah Montana concert. I am taking my 8 year old daughter along with 5 of her closest friends (all 8 years old) and their moms to the concert. It should be a blast!!! Dh elected to stay with S at home instead of escorting 6 8 year olds, lol.