Saturday, January 26, 2008

9 weeks 5 days

Well things are still going good. I have a severe case of bronchitis. YIKES. Saw my pcp on Monday and she added in a nasty vile tasting cough medicine. Everything was inflamed and irritated. She wanted to calm it all down. That medicine is truly awful but it worked and I am on the mend finally I think. S is getting sick now though. Go figure.

I called the peri's office this week. My ob wanted me seen at 14 weeks with them. When I called the lady said that they would be doing an US anyway so why don't I come in the week before to screen for genetic defects. I said will it be ok with my ob, and she said they would call the office for me. Ummm ok. When I did call they wanted to know why I was coming in so early. Then I told her my history and she said yeah, you need to be in early.

Other news, I was offered a promotion with a different agency. It would be a fantastic opportunity. I thought long and hard about it and TURNED IT DOWN. Can you believe that? I was insane. The insane part, I turned it down THREE times. They know that I am pregnant. They said they would work with it. I still turned it down. So the last time I turned it down, I said I thought it was a fabulous opportunity (own office - have cube now, much more people to share the work - 4 of us now, more opportunity to promotions, immediate promotion now, and much more). However, with my pregnancy, I had to turn it down. I just can't deal with the extra stress of a new job on top of a high risk pregnancy. My health and the baby's health came first. I asked that he please keep me in consideration for future positions. So then he emailed me back after a while and asked if I would still be interested if they held the job till October. ABSOLUTELY.

Then he called and said that they couldn't hold it. However, they have another announcement going out. They have 90 days to select and I would have 90 days to come there. Which would put it at an October/November time frame. BINGO. I said I would do it. He is going to keep in touch with me each month and call me when the new announcement comes out. WOW. This stuff never happens to me. I have to say that I am extremely impressed with the lengths that they went to get me there. I am worried about starting at a new agency. My boss is aware of most of this except that I am planning on going there in October. She just knows there is another announcement coming out that I intend to apply for. However, I know what I am doing and what the rules and regs are. In addition, my coworker accepted the other position for the same agency. I mean they were going to work with my pregnancy, but I don't know them and how do I know that they are for real and not saying stuff to get me. At least with my current agency, I know that I can get work at home as that is agency practice. I know that I can get lots of comp time, so that I can take more time off with the baby. I wouldn't necessarily get that there. Plus, did I really want to be the new pregnant girl that is being resented by coworkers for not carrying her load and then being pulled out of work for several months. I felt it was a pretty wise decision on my part. I am young and I know that other promotions would come along. Really I want to try and do what I can that is right. Not that it matters much but this would have really put my current boss in a HUGE bind where she would have lost her only two employees. It also gives my coworker a chance to tell me what it is like there. I told her she better not tell me it is fabulous just to get me there and then I find out it sucks big time.

Funniest reaction of the week goes to our assistant chief. My boss was telling him that we would have to do our contracts in assembly line fashion. He didn't get it. He was like we'll be fine (thinking about other coworker leaving). My boss is like NO you don't understand, S is pregnant. I hear from my desk WHAT??? Are you serious??? How did that happen??? OMG. Then he started to hyperventilate. I felt like I was 15 and was telling my dad that I was pregnant if you kwim!!! He literally hyperventilated. I hear R put your head between your legs and BREATHE. Gee, guess I would be missed, lol. My boss said that she felt like she was a little girl telling HER dad something bad and she is 57 years old! He then asked me if it had been planned???? He said as the only guy in here and a fatherly figure, was it planned. WHAT? I said are you kidding me? OMG, that was just way too much for me. Don't worry, he recovered the next day.

Oh and I said something to another coworker who within 15 minutes had spread it all over the building that I was pregnant and had turned down a promotion because of it. WTF? She just reinforced to me that she is a little twit and as bad as it sounds, what comes around goes around and she is getting hers. I did feel bad for her but not after she outted another pregnant girl. Her job was an obligated position. Meaning that it was a permanent temporary position for 2 years where it was another person's position. That person went overseas. Which means he has return rights to that job when he comes back. The person that took it temporarily is out. Due to her antics - she thinks that she is better than us attitude, her constant rumoring and spreading stuff, etc, being very unpleasant to work with, no one is looking to help her out. She is eligible to retire so she won't be in the cold. Anyway, the administation told her that they had made the position permanent. Except they never did the paperwork for it. When she asked paperwork to confirm, admin told her that her boss can do that for her and he won't be doing it. Problem is my boss refuses to do the paperwork because she doesn't have another position to move her to. My boss says admin told you they made it permanent, they have to do the paperwork. Plus my boss is retiring. So really this girl made her own bed.

So good news. I am getting a new job in October that is a $11,000 payraise right off the bat, plus cost of living increase in January 09. A new baby. I think I am finally getting better. Oh and the nausea and puking have eased up. It doesn't look like I am going to be as sick as I was with S. YEAHHHHH. I don't know how I ever survived that, it was awful.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Houston, we have a heartbeat!!!!!!

Ahhh yes, just a flicker but it was there on my ob's old abdominal US machine at 8 1/2 weeks. Can you believe it? So I went in for my 8 week appt with my ob. Yes the dr and not the midwife this time, lol. Nothing against midwives but they are perfect for low risk patients which we all know I am not. We talked about several things. Yes it is true I am going to the peri starting at 14 weeks. He is getting the referral started now with his billing person. He said she'll call me in about 2 weeks to let me know it is done and then I can schedule my appt. YEAH another US and that means it is level II. YIPPEE. Good for low dose aspirin. He was pleased that I had started that. He agreed with the prednisone for sinus infection that never goes away. So I will be on it for the next 9 days. He also agreed with the high dose antibiotics to get rid of the sinus infection and prevent my habit of Pneumonia in the first trimester. He gave me more Reglan. Thank God. Oh and how the hell did I gain TEN pounds in 4 weeks when I have been totally nauseated. I checked tonight and my gain is actually 3 lbs on my scale. Problem was his scale coordinated to mine 4 weeks ago. So maybe his scale is off? I think he needs it serviced. Of course I have to eat every hour or I am puking.

He tried with the doppler for a heartbeat. I can't believe it. The midwife in the practice last time didn't bother trying at 9 weeks and here my doc tried at 8 1/2. I was so excited. He said don't get upset if I don't find it. That's yours, that is yours, that is yours. I said you know with S., you would just get the US machine because she was so active. He said, I'm going to get the US machine. He goes and drags it out of the supply room across the hall. (Can I say I hate it when they open and shut the door and I am covered in a sheet!!!!). He turns out the lights and I said hey doc it is really dark in here. It was pitch black. He turned on the lamp. Turned the screen so we could both see it and NOTHING. I couldn't even see a uterus. He pointed out the uterus but it didn't look like a uterus to me. You know it usually shows the black space with a baby in it. This was like all grey tones. I think it was just my abdominal fat he was looking at there. We looked and looked and looked and NOTHING. So being the determined doc that he is and me by now panicking. He said let's try a different angle and BAM there was the black cavity with a blob in it (and it wasn't where he said my uterus was. The first one where he pointed was on the lower right side of the screen. When he turned the angle, the black cavity with baby was way up in the upper left part of the screen). We were looking for movement because his machine doesn't have sound? (He has never turned on the sound for it, I'm sure he won't be able to hear baby on doppler next time too and will get the us. ). There it was for a few brief moments. The flicker. You know, looks like the little flicker things on pinball machines that you hit the ball back in with. It was amazing. The best part was only one. I breathed a HUGE sigh of relief. So did my doc. He said I think I see it, a flicker. He goes it is really early for abdominal US. Let's put it this way, I am in no way, shape, or form thin. I said I saw it too and pointed on the screen where I saw it. He said yeah that's it. So I think we confirmed for each other that we saw it. Both of us were reassured. Oh and there is only ONE. Thank God. I was really worried as I have already grown out of my clothes and am now wearing maternity jeans, bigger shirts, and bigger knit pants. It hasn't helped that my dh thought for sure it was twins, my boss mentioned twins because of me already showing, and my ortho doc saying it would be awesome for twins because he has twins. Which I related why I was worried about twins to my ob. Oh and did I mention twins runs in my family??? But alas no twins. We just want one healthy baby. I don't even care about the gender as long as we are both healthy. Time is going by so fast. The first time, it moved slowly because you are naive and pregnancy is new. The second time it moved slow because food was my enemy the entire time and my bp was not under control. This time it is going fast. BP is somewhat under control. It was 138/82 at the ob's. I think it was high because of an incident that happened at work beyond my control that I was angry about and the nurse had to take it about 8 times. The first top number she got was 122. But she couldn't get the bottom number because it is very faint in me when pregnant. So she kept inflating and inflating and deflating and then reinflating. I am not too worried. It was 124/85 at the pcp's on Monday. This was a new nurse in the practice (she was older and grey haired). She said ok, so you'll be seeing Dr. E today (as if I had never seen him before, lmao). I said oh you don't have to explain. I assure you we both know who each other are. I was one of those scary patients last pregnancy. Oh really? What was wrong? So then I told her my history. She didn't run away screaming. I have decided I like her even though it took 8 times to take my bp. She didn't freak out, she told me my bp when I asked without hesitating and she takes Ziac too! My kind of nurse. My ob is ok with me being on Ziac. He said he prefers aldomet, but if it doesn't work it doesn't work. It's not like he won't be watching me like a hawk. I asked him if he thought I would get past 36 weeks. His response, "You know, There are some women that I think man they need to be induced, you think no way are they going to get further, and then they surprise me." Such the diplomat. I'm going to ask my peri and see what she says. I know what they both said before pregnancy. But now that I am pregnant they give hope. I like that. Cause you know, I could surprise everyone.

My pcp is on board. Anytime we come in (for the girls or me), first thing she asks is what is your bp and how are YOU doing. I was in on Monday because of a sinus infection and told her I was really nauseated and on Reglan 4 times a day. She said they say nausea is a sign of a healthy pregnancy. Then I told her that my immune system goes to crap in the first trimester. She said well if you think about it, the baby is a parasite that just sucks everything from you. In order for baby to stick, your immune system has to lower. I found out that she will be the one coming to the hospital when baby is born to check he or she out. It's a great feeling to know she will be jsut as excited as we are when baby gets here. She is fabulous with my girlies. S is already playing dr, like Dr. L does with the dr kit she got for Christmas. So all in all a good appt. Next one is 2/21. We mailed out the cards to the family announcing. Hoping we get good responses back.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

K is in for a rough time the next few months

Yes my 8 year old has a GI problem. For years, her peds had told me she had a behavior issue. However, no matter how much dh and I tried, it has never gone away. She was diagnosed at age 4 with encopresis. Her ped at the time did no tests but an abdominal xray which showed she was full of poop. We had to do enemas till she got cleaned out. At 8 she still poops in her underwear. Not completely pooping in pants but skidmarks sometimes bad skidmarks. I have been cleaning the underwear all this time. She always had poop issues. She was constantly constipated. Her first ped refused to do anything about it and told us it was normal. I don't think so. We trusted him how were we to know. He told us she would grow out of it. She didn't. At 4, we changed peds because he also misdiagnosed her asthma. Told us it was impossible for a child under the age of 1 to have it. Chose to be reactive instead of proactive. It was when she was 2, that I was able to get her into a specialist and I did it without his help. God Bless Dr. R. She said oh my. You poor things have been through so much. K has the worst case of asthma in town. It will take time but we will get her better. She said the ped had been negligent in not getting her into the specialist sooner.

At 4 1/2 we changed to Dr. B. Another ped, but this time she diagnosed her with encopresis. Behavior behavior behavior. She was started on lactulose. This was awful. Eventually switched to miralax. Still didn't work. We left her because of rude staff and the inability to get an appt.

At 5 we switched to Dr. L. He told us that she didn't eat enough fruits and vegetables. We left him because he told my underweight daughter that wore SLIM jeans that she was severely overweight. I hardly think so when she weighed 50 pounds at 7 1/2 years old. This resulted in a weight concsious kid not to eat for three weeks.

Now we are with our family practice dr. I love her. I called the office and requested to see the dr alone for 5 minutes before K was brought in. I also warned the staff to PLEASE NOT tell K or say anything to K about me being preggo. We want to wait till 12 weeks to tell everyone and K has a BIG mouth and can not keep any secret. They did as I asked. We got there and they brought me back and K stayed in the waiting room. As soon as I got in the room. D (nurse) came in. OMG, I just heard that you were pregnant!!! Girl you work quick. I just got your consults from Dr. H (endo specialist) and Dr. E (obgyn). She said your endo report was dated 11/12. Your visit with Dr. E was dated 12/26. It said your last period was 11/17 on the report from Dr. E. Congratulations and she gave me a HUGE hug and asked me a thousand questions. Was I going to see the peri (Dr. W). Did I want to find out the sex. OMG the girls were going to be so excited. It was really really exciting to have someone so happy for us knowing how most people would feel that I am an obsterical trainwreck waiting to happen. She left and doc came in.

Dr. L listened to everything and said that this isn't a behavioral issue. That this was a medical issue. K literally can not feel the urge to go to the bathroom. I have to tell her to go. I had to teach her to use those muscles to go. There is no feeling there for her. So Dr. L brought her in and asked her questions. K was totally embarassed but did cooperate and answer them. She listened to her belly and wrote out an order for an abdominal xray. Doc doesn't feel like it is hirsprunger syndrome but does feel certain something medically is not right. We discussed what would need to be done. A biopsy from a colonoscopy (OMG I NEVER want this done, how can I make my 8 year old do this???), a barium enema, possibly surgery (I told her about this which is a pull through procedure). If K truly does not have feeling there, then they can cut out the bad nerves and pull her colon down enough that she can have good nerve cells. None of this fun. She also is sending us to a Ped GI Specialist of hers that is a favorite. While there are probably gi specialists in other big city. She wants us to see this guy. So much so that she is getting him covered out of network for us.

Oh and she asked me how I was doing before K came in. Told her my bp was up already from prepregnancy baseline of 110/70 to 124/88. She said it wasn't too awful considering my pregnancy past, but will need to be watched. She was relieved that I was seeing a peri starting at 14-16 weeks.

So say some prayers for my little girl that maybe some medicine may help her and no surgery. She is only 8 and I can't imagine having to do the stuff that she is going to have to do soon for testing.