Can't Sleep

It's almost 2am and I can not sleep. I took unisom and 10mg lortab which should have knocked me out and didn't. I saw the pa today for my knee. He examined it, gave me some exercises to work on to help the muscles around the kneecap to tighten up so it won't slip. He suspects the pain is being caused by my kneecap moving side to side. I also got my first cortisone shot too. How come they give numbing medicine but it doesn't work till you are done with the shot. OWWWWW. Not as bad as I thought it would be. Before we talked about the pain of it and he thoroughly explained it. He said you have been through much worse to be worried about this little shot. You have had two babies with complications and major knee surgery and you are worried about this. Nope, will be a piece of cake. It was. He told me it would feel great for a couple of hours because of the numbing med, but then it was going to hurt much worse for two days. He said it would be ok, and not to get worried and call him tomorrow and say G., what did you do to my need. Then he said by 7-10 days, I'll be golden. He said it should be ok for my business trip in 2 weeks.

Other news, my no fault insurer has demanded another IME with there nasty dr and the nasty dr office they do it in. I loathe this dr and if he was my personal doc I would sue his butt for malpractice. He caused intentional physical and emotional pain and distress by denying my medical care the last time they did this. I ended up going into debt over dr bills, had to get a loan to pay for it so we wouldn't go into collections because no one would pay for it (they were kind enough to send a letter to my health insurer that they were denying benefits for an accident related problem which led to my health insurer denying benefits saying no fault was responsible. It took months and an almost cancelled surgery to get it straightened out. Thank God I am a federal employee because they have to pay per federal contracts on health insurance. Then no fault paid anyway when the surgery was done. ASSHOLES).

My lawyer says I have to go so we can sue them for denial of medical benefits. But I don't want to. I see no point in me wasting my precious time, gas, and dignity for these jerks when I have no chance in hell of them helping me. They should have let my health insurance pay for it and let me take care of this in one day and sue their butts. The dr is an ass plain and simple. I will not let him disrespect me like he did the last time. I felt like trash when I saw him before. That will not happen again. I am going to have a very hard time keeping my mouth shut with him. Especially when he recognizes that he saw me at the Chiropractor IME exam and tried to examine me (I was still on crutches). My lawyer would not let him do it and told him to bug off. But my lawyer won't be there with me. To tell you the truth, he was a real ass to the dr the last time when he wouldn't leave me alone. I do plan on telling the IME dr whatever happened to do no harm to your patient??? Had he have done the RIGHT thing, the surgery would have been sooner and maybe less pain and damage. These people literally have a denial letter already prepared and dated and signed and simply drop it in the mail the day of your appt. I really have absolutely NO love for this man whatsoever and I hope there is a special place in hell for him. My lawyer says that drs that do this for insurance companies a) can't make it in private practice because of whatever reason (medical malpractice, personality problem, etc) or b) new. This guy fits in A. He is a small guy 5ft and had a God like personality, an ego a mile wide, is arrogant, and has a chip on his shoulder. I am not staying past 5pm either. The lawyer said no more than 1/2 an hour of waiting for this asshole. My lawyer says he is going to call me tomorrow to discuss it. He knows that I am very pissed off about this and that I am not happy. So he is trying to calm me down. No fault is very anxious to get this appt done so they can start denying claims. I really want to tell him when I see him, I'll see his butt in court and will take PLEASURE in seeing my lawyer rip him a new one with the improper exams that he has conducted on me and the damage that he personally caused because of his greed. At least there is a Starbucks across the street and at least I know that my insurance will cover it minus the copays which is better than what happened for months of no one getting paid the last time.

On other news for the ttc front, I have decided to stop the bcp and prometrium after my specialist visit on 10/5. I want to have at least one complete cycle in and know how it is working. I am going to ask my pcp to refill the lortab for it so that I won't be miserable and unable to do anything. I think with a good painkiller this time, I can get through it for one month.